kyowiii

tiny nails on tiny fingers

tiny fingers on tiny hands

tiny hands on tiny arms

i wish you were mine. (;

tiny dimple on right cheek,

and when she cries.. red face..

i love you.

one week-old chloe yvaughn

tiny nails on tiny toes

tiny toes on tiny feet

tiny feet on tiny legs

i love the way you are!

one day-old chloe

weekends made meaningful, without duties, books and blogging,

whenever i visit this remarkable creature named chloe yvaughn..♥♥♥

never thought i could hold and really care for a baby

without the slightest reluctance and apprehension..

cus before, i never really liked babies..

before nursing school, i never had a real experience with babies..
because i was the baby of the family.. right, i'm the youngest child..

the first time i held one, it was when i was having my duty at the regional hospital.

the senior nurse made me catch the baby from the mother's vulva (yeah, kinda gross..),

i didn't know what to do, i forgot about everything discussed in the classroom about neonatal care

i couldn't even hold the baby properly.. right, i was a horrible nurse..

it got lots of vernix caseosa all over its tiny body!

i was like, ugh! was i like that when i was a newborn??

and it made me nervous, it was a neonate, for goodness sake!

what if it slipped off my hands? it was slippery!

what if it stopped breathing? it was crying-- lustily, raucously crying..

good thing the cries made me remember what to do..

don't worry, the baby was well cared for..(;

i know how to take care of babies, i daresay i know more than the average mom.

but babies just weren't my thing.

their cries irritated me.

their poop disgusted me.

i thought "what a misery business it is, to have a thing so tiny,

so alive, so demanding of your attention,

you try to hush it up but sometimes it just won't stop howling!

for the love of oreos, what does it want??"

i never really cared about babies, until i met chloe.(:

amazing how tiny things and beings can make us realize that anything is possible..